Hellowwww.
Ohhhh, finally it's Saturday that I get to go online/get myself updated after so many days since school reopen.
Today was maths small test, which I nearly wanted to commit suicide *choi choi choi + vomit blood.
After seeing through the questions over and over... I realise I CAN'T EVEN UNDERSTAND WTH is it???
All the mind kept saying was : " how come so hard??? how come so hard???" and the tummy started to feel wobbly packed with butterflies. Shit.
Omg. The brain has officially announce itself being rusty.
:(
What la???
One month only mar.
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The first week was all about getting myself comfortable to fit in the new environment. and to embark my new chapters of life getting to learn new things/meet new friends etc.
Was scrolling and clicking on various blogs around the net (mostly people i know) and to take a peep on the goings-on life's with them.
Knowing that those who were elder then me all being in different colleges taking up various courses I hardly even knew and thus, studying overseas.
It made a twitch in the stomach for a while, to see that they were in front of you the day before and now, being all the way end of the world.
It somehow make me think : " god will this be me next???"
No wonder people say that time flies at a blink of an eye. You see, the first week of school has been yet over. What will it be like when you grow older???
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To be honest, I've had thoughts in mind earlier during the holidays about my future.
Surprisingly, my point of view had totally changed as I've found that what I really WANT to do isn't what I really wanted at the first place.
I know being a surgeon has always been my dream since....FOREVER???
But, before I start learning how to rescue people and doing bloody honouring, fantastic things as a surgeon or any similiar job in the same field, I've yet to see people around the world as they suffer from various diseases/ kids weren't able to go to school and stuffs FIRST.
And who knows, I might end up being a charity worker.
:)
Basically, the main point is, studying deadly in classroom/ memorizing unknown chemical equations (without even knowing what chemical is it or maybe without knowing why the reaction occured and so on though I know that that's what practicals are for), doesn't seem to fantasize me, as why can't we do something other than being in a box while there's much outside the world.
And why are we suppose to do things BASED on the book itself???
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Basically, because it's SUPER unfair when you get lower marks for no other reason as those who can MEMORIZE more gets higher.
And whats worst, it'll make you feel dissapointed and ended up ignoring those certain subjects (you once loved) completely.
For once, it's drastically unfair.
x(
p/s: People are an illusion to you, while you on the other hand, are illusion to others. You've MADE them being in your life, and for somehow, they've made you being in theirs.
